I will first introduce myself, introduce my tulpa Eerie, and finally introduce my tulpa King.
I'm Garrett, and I'm 30 years old and have lived in Arizona for 19 years.
I'm a child of severe abuse and neglect and one of those guinea pig SSRI and ritalin pill babies who was pilled up at 5 years old, and developed male BPD and schizotypal disorder. I've mostly (but not all the way) been rehabilitated from the BPD and lead a relatively successful life in all ways except financially.
I really enjoy the mental illnesses that I have. I personally think I have an extraordinarily rare combination of being extroverted enough to be a shameless entertainer on the Internet and a completely open book, and I've met many Internet friends IRL unafraid. I can carry a conversation and I'm comfortable being the center of conversation and have no topics I'm uncomfortable with. These are features not typically found in the "antisocials social clubs" and I'm usually pretty popular online as a result. Like, say I join a Discord server filled with ex-4chan users and all of them are afraid/too depressed to talk, which is all of them. Well, I'll talk and usually become relatively popular as a result. But, I'm mentally ill enough to have avoided the aspects of life that completely enslave the typical extroverts, like nightclubs, rap, Instagram, Twitch, and Discord servers with 90,000 users and this kind of thing. The typical alt-Internet user will be so caught up in privacy copes that they won't even tell you their first name and sever the possibility of a friendship to blossom as soon as you've met them, and I have never been this way and I'm here to socialize and to talk and to share, while also understanding and sympathizing with the general culture of the alt-Internet. So maybe you can see how this is a fun combination. I doxxed myself on 4chan when I was 12 years old cause I wanted to make friends.
Anyway, a typical day for me will go like I wake up, I get onto my computer and I sit there for 16-19 hours straight. And this has been the case since I was a small child. Always socializing, though. I posted on newgrounds forums, I became close friends with a homeless guy who makes Drew Pickles youtube poops and Microsoft Sam shitposts, I spent $400 making my avatar look cool on Gaia Online, I shitposted so hard I killed several generals on /v/ and /vg/, I became an admin on tohno-chan and talked in his IRC, all while I was underaged. Always using the Internet to socialize.
I despise what has happened to the Internet. I saw someone write today that turning their computer on feels like compulsively opening the fridge even though you already know there's nothing to eat. It has felt like this to me ever since Josh sold 9chan. I feel like crying just typing that.
Yes I know kiwifarms and 4chan still technically exist and I could post there anytime, but I have no desire to at all because of how they've all been infested with vitamin supplements and self-help gurus. I want to kill myself every single time I see someone discussing the exercise and fitness industry that's valued at over $828 billion.
As a result of my hating the new Internet so badly, I've become sort of "Internet homeless" and I haven't wrote a comment or submitted a post much of anywhere in several years. Consequently, my writing quality has dropped to 0. I am trying extremely hard right now to explain my ideas coherently and use proper grammar. I haven't done this since probably 2019? I tried writing a serious response and a serious Steam review last night, and they both looked like they were written by someone with schizophrenia or someone who's English second language. I became embarrassed enough that I wanted a place to practice writing with proper grammar and punctuation and get my communications skills back up. But there is no place to post. I hate everybody. So I had to reopen my own blog somewhere. And endchan has always been there for me.
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