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thats really sweet anon :D that actually made my day <3
ive tried medication but it sadly didnt do anything but make me too tired to act on my emotions. while that works in stopping me its not a good feeling at all. i tried just sucking it up and enduring how much i hated waking up every day because atleast i wasnt hurting anyone ,, then the meds stopped working and i was having crazy meltdowns ,, this time i wasnt hurting others i was just hurting myself ,, i tried to accept it and take one for the team if that makes sense but it got so bad that my mother had to call the cops on me because i had locked myself in the bathroom with an eyebrow razor and it honestly wasnt very pretty. looking back i had no real reason to do it i was just not in my own head if that makes sense :'( ive since gotten off of medication and havent had any feelings of wanting to self harm or hurt others. my relationships have improved alot since im actually able to think without feeling like a zombie.
i think what really changed was how i reacted to what happened to me and coping better nodnod i like to listen to music alot and find just yapping about random shit with my friends helps take my mind off of things :3
> You're definitely more honest than the average girl that posts here.
ive always had a hard time lying about things to the point that im like BRUTALLY honest sometimes haha
sorry for the long yap i know you didnt really ask for all of this lols