Everything changed when at 15 I came across a dare post on an self-bondage forum.
The author suggested to put electrodes on your torso, connect them to a 24V AC transfomer controlled by an electronic timer (set on 30 minutes, itself connected to the domestic power). Bound yourself spread eagled to your bed, a pair of scissors behind your back, enjoy the danger some times and then move around to get the scissors and release yourself in time. I was fascinated by this idea, somehow scared about it but a lot excited to try on me. I waited two weeks for my parents to go away from home for a week-end, leaving me alone with my dare. I found an 12V AC transformer to play with.
As this detail added a lot to my arousal, let me explain how the dare asked to place the electrodes on my body : one electric wire is divided like a Y, making two electrodes, 5mm bare metal tip each, on two wet (with water+salt) cotton pads put on my nipples, the whole set in place with large tape. The other wire, 1mm bare metal tip is directly inserted into my navel, also fixed with tape. Of course I tried without any bounds, when the nipples electrodes was settled on my torso, I took the navel tip in one hand and turned on the transformer with the other. It was time. I brougth the bare metal tip close to my belly button, slowly entering in : the sensations was amazing, hot, more and more powerful as I entered deeper. Reaching the knot of my navel was an ecstasy. The pain meld with intense pleasure as I mastubated while torturing myself like that, the danger for my life adding to the excitement of being the subject of an experiment.
This becomes an habbit of intense pleasure. With time I tried differents modes : 24V AC, DC (bad idea), bound (only two times), scraping hardly my navel with the bare metal tip to get intense sensations. What I like the most is to stop wanking and spread eagle like being tortured on a rack, moving my belly around to make the navel electrode move just a little on my knot making sensations change that is unspeakable but so enjoyable, hoping this condition will stay forever. I even broke a transformer feeling its power slowly decreasing to zero.
My sexuality was fully turned on this, the dare owned me. Getting older I became fat and even if I enjoy my torture sessions a lot, to electrify my fat torso somehow disgusts me. I remember being aroused by girls/women, but I soon found myself fantasize about ~15yo boys torsos. I got a huge collection of shirtless boy from the clearnet (no cp, no nude) and I enjoy looking at their fragile nipples and unique belly buttons. Like were mines when I started to harm myself. Torturing myself with electricity while looking at them is so pleasuring. I'm now 32. And this forum post ruined my life.
I'm now fixed and I have taken my decision : I will give myself as a sacrifice to the beauty of teen boys torsos.
I will set up one last time the electrodes on my body, bound myself spread eagled on my bed (with locker with unknown codes), with the picture of my prefered teen torso in front of me (fixed on the ceiling). I will have approx 25 minutes to enjoy my situation, looking at this beautiful shirtless teen boy above me before 230V from domestic outlet to traverse my pig torso. I want it now so bad. I want to give myself to these beauties.
I will probably record my execution with a camera as a testimony, I will explain all again in it. I'm a little shy about getting an erection before beeing fried ...
I think I will set the timer for an electrocution duration of 3 or 5 minutes. I hope it will be enough to kill me.
In June.