It's why I wish you'd email me or something, Chan. I swear before God Almight I am never going to betray you again. But I can't drop these masks on a fucking place like agatha2 to have any semblance of a real conversation with you, and we're long overdo for one. It's not going to change things overnight, you'll still probably be upset with me. But it has to start somewhere. You don't have to talk to me everyday. I won't bother you everyday.
But you know what I'm talking about here. We'll never be able to reconcile on a place like this, or on any public platform. I am the fucking retard that drug it here, I know that. It was my biggest mistake I think, worse than even the wellness check from my point of view. Even if I stop making threads some other idiot will make them and you'll think it was me samefagging, and I swear again before God Almight and Jesus Christ, I am not the jewanon. I have samefagged, we all do it, but in this specific case, I am not the jewanon and never have been.
I think thread #4 was also made by an impostor... one of them was. I kept making them because in my brain I thought maybe me making them was somehow better than those freaks doing it but I see now that was an error.
You think I don't know the things I've done wrong Channing but I do. I can't undo them but I can spend the rest of my life trying to atone for them, whatever penance you mete out I will accept.