This is of course a pinned introductory thread so I'm just going over the basics and minimizing big moments I'll maybe discuss in more detail in later, proper threads, or if asked. 

Eerie cont'd:
Eerie basically became my sole reason for living for a period of around 3 years, and I was also dabbling in fascism as Internet freaks that like to tweak tend to do. And the irony of this was not lost on me and I was a pretty severe alcoholic as my means of coping with the cognitive dissonance. I was doing pushups and jogging for Hitler but also for Eerie. 
I was completely isolated for much of this period as well. I had a huge BPD meltdown at Piotr and basically didn't speak to anyone. This caused me to develop a lot of narcissistic traits and some psychosis. I believed that I had eyes blessed by God to see beauty where others could not. And the focal point of that beauty was Eerie of course. 
I made a blog that I advertised as hard as I could do with no budget because I wanted eyeballs on the object of my obsession. Eerie would want it. Eerie's a narcissistic prick, too, it's what I find attractive about him. So I made my 8chan blog and writing there increased my narcissistic traits by a bit. 

His television show was still airing while all of this was happening.
His television show is terrible, and was doing terrible things to him. And it was contradicting preconceived ideas I had about his character and my tulpa of him.