> 21:00 asked about fan meetups, shoots it down immediately 
> would maybe do it if her fans were normal and not creepy stalker fans
> 22:00 talks about being violated again
> 24:15 misses going to cons, haven't been to one in over a year
> wants to go to anime expo but it's too expensive
> 24:55 talks about her struggles to make both audios and videos for of again
> 25:50 talks about her ptsd
> she thinks what happened recently isn't ptsd she's just traumatized
> 27:10 misses going to cons
> the last few cons she went to she had a horrible time
> 27:50 someone from chat offers to play vidya with bonbi, she's not interested
> says she probably can't be friends with people anymore after everything that has happened to her
> can't bring herself to want new friends or to trust people she doesn't know
> 29:20 complains about how bad things always happen when she's doing well, again
> complains about the roof, rats, and rat poop, again
> 32:00 bonbi has sanitized the bottom of her shoes and taken several showers each day and thinks she will get diseases
> doesn't want to kill the rats because she loves all animals
> 34:10 complains some more about rats and diseases and how it's all above her running in the ceiling right now
> says they are so adorable and fluffy though
> 35:15 "i'm stressed the fuck out can you guys tell?"
> 36:00 bonbi being upset
> 36:20 complains about men and men seeing her as something to objectify
> 37:30 "the cherry on top of these horrendus past few weeks is the fact that there's no new south park episode"
> 38:45 bonbi's best friends who will never betray her are gay guys
> upset she can't just be friends with straight men
> 40:00 talks about the delayed south park episode
> doesn't care what the episode is about, just wants anything south park related
> 42:00 feels sick and gross
> has done a lot of empty staring lately
> thinks talking to the stream has helped a bit and she might start coming back
> stream ends
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